(ab)normalities

Normal everyday life is a North American generalization
like a dream
True normal is a state of constant starvation
unlike the dream
1st person normality is what I dictate as normal
After numerous revalations
I am normal and you are all abnormalities in my dream world.

people

I annoy them, they annoy me.
It’s a hated mutual relationship.
So I’ll keep trolling,
until I win and they lose.

It was ok

Another emotastic poem for my impending dooms day! Yah! I’m not really that emo though x___X Although it isn’t really a poem, more like song lyrics. So I have included a bunch of songs that MIGHT fit well with the words.

If you have other songs to match, share please cause I’m trying to broaden my emo song library.

Waltz

papermoon

strength

月華- tsukihana

found me

Step behind this curtain,
And enter this crazy nightmare.
There’s no catch, just a warning
So please listen carefully.

This place use to be full of smiles,
And then the flowers began to peel away.
The shadows left,
And the dog never came home.
It went something like that.

Searching left and right,
It was just one big circle.
The world waltzed in this paradox.
And if you ever thought,
It was ok
Then maybe it is best to dissolve

This room had two umbrellas,
And then it became only one.
His hand was taken,
And nobody heard it sang in the rain.

This place had the smell of cake,
And then the milk began to mould.
The tray was cold,
And the love faded away,
It was left untouched.

With everything tearing apart,
And still fresh from the oven,
The salt stings the open wound.
And if you ever thought,
It was ok
Then maybe it is best to fade

No matter how many times,
Blood spills onto the floor,
It can be wiped sparkling clean.
And if you ever thought,
It was ok.
Then maybe it is best…

Those unspoken words never heard,
Because ignorance is bliss,
And everything was rejected back.
And if you ever thought,
It was ok
Then maybe it is best to disintegrate

(still editing)

Love War, Hate Peace

from pixiv

It’s going no where,
No matter what is done.
Wanting to reach the other side,
Yet trying only makes the scars hurt.
Even after waving the white flag,
Regret lingers in no man’s land.

Separated Hearts

I’m breaking the habit! Yes, a non-music youtube video related post. More emotastic poetry, yah =.=”” I am such a fountain of emoness. Anyway, cheesy once again, but emoness is cheesy if you think about it.

I called so many times, but nobody responded.
The number of times I heard an echo, was exponential.

“How are you?” “Fine, thank you.”
The neglected lies become truth, and feelings get buried.

It was a friendly conversation over electronic waves.
Yet, the connection we built together was only artificial.

Laughing and smiling in this place where I belong.
Yet, I live alone in this piece of the broken world. How cruel.

“Hush! Be silent,” and the butterfly flutters past me.
“Speak words from the heart,” and I went unnoticed.

I dreamt of an idealist who gave me a star.
But then I realized the sad reality; I was a stupid dreamer too.

Wanting to see myself, I looked in your eyes.
But I was being silly for your eyes were not mirrors.

It was never meant to be a secret.
It was discrimination against emotions that made it that way.

Then tomorrow comes, and the sadness grows.
It was constant finger pointing that made my existence an error.

Should I run after you, or stand still?
either way, nothing will change.

Angst and Emo

Feeling a bit angsty, so I’m posting a poem I’ve been working on for a while.

The same track repeats
With a song of unknown identities
With a song of memories
With a song of worries

The same tragic story
Running towards Reaching out
Danced away Desirable passion
Calling a name Crying a tear

The same rhythm beats
With a thump of unbearable pain
With a thump of stains
With a thump of chains

The same dark stalker
False feelings Foolish thinking
Annoying topic Always silent
Love not equal Looks away

The same ignorant eyes
With a view of the fool
With a view of the unhurt
With a view of the everyday

Thinking about those dreams
Beating hearts shadowed
by unobservant people

Note: This poem is actually a riddle, if you can figure out the riddle, I will give you a brownie.

This is the summer time~

Summer is here,
the end was clear.
The cult is done,
and the the time has come,
for me to say good bye.

This is me

You said you hated it
Complaining is all you can do
and effort becomes a waste.

Talking to you, such a burden
Stop bothering me…
Are you trying to escape?

Falling again
even after I helped you out
Just try your best.

Far behind the rest
You said come here,
why not reach for top?

wasting time…

Cat got your tongue?

What did I do?
That was what I thought…
Desperately searching for the truth,
I found the answer.
Yet the butterflies won’t let me dance.

Fantasies are fantasies,
Page after page,
Character after character,
Sappy love stories and Heroic triumph.
Yet why do I feel lost in my own story?

I understand.
Was I oblivious to the fact…
In the end…
I…
yet lost, confused, empty.

The words I want to say,
feel like rotten lies.
The smile I want to show,
doesn’t seem to reveal the heart.
I want to apologize to you but…
Yet the cat has got my tongue.

***

Wrote about how I’m feeling at the moment. Truly the cat has got my tongue. Slowly I’m starting to realize that maybe I brought it upon myself. I ask myself “Why me? Why choose me?” I’ve asked that question from the beginning but… The more I look at how confused I am, the more guilty I feel for the people around me and at fault. I…I can’t bring myself to…

I can’t even finish my sentence.

Sorry if this post is strange…sorry minna-san…sorry…sorry…