(ab)normalities

Normal everyday life is a North American generalization
like a dream
True normal is a state of constant starvation
unlike the dream
1st person normality is what I dictate as normal
After numerous revalations
I am normal and you are all abnormalities in my dream world.

profound

If you were playing a chess game, or any strategy board game that involves moving pieces, who are you in this game? My understanding on how the military works is that they carry out orders from those higher up. If that is so, the person making all the decisions in chess should be the King. But the king doesn’t move by itself and neither do the other pieces. Its almost as if you are playing as God, and moving your pieces as the will of God. But if you’re God, than the other person you’re playing chess with is also a God with another agenda.

Hmmm….

In IDC, a course I took in my final year of high school, we studied some metaphoric ways of looking at the process of teaching and learning. One of these metaphors was midwifery. The idea was that we, the student, holds all the answers within us. We just need to pull it out. The teacher in this case plays the roles of the midwife.

Anyway, the point is, one type of way to think of learning is that you already know everything, you just have to pull it out of your brain. But if we hold all the knowledge we are too learn in our heads already, then we also know how to deal with situations and drama because we already have the knowledge. It could also be very possible that we know the very names of the people we may meet later in life, we just had to bump into them to remember. So based on this theory, there is such thing as fate. But whether you believe in the original idea where knowledge comes from within will effect how this bullshit might sound.

Oooooo…I don’t think I explained myself very well…

Flowers. Everybody thinks they’re pretty, even the dark gothic archetypes, with their black roses. But if we talk about flowers on a scientific level, they’re just sexual organs made for the sole purpose of getting bugs to rape them. So basically if someone gives you a boquet of flowers, it could mean that they want you to reproduce. If you want to look like a flower (putting make up on, wearing floral colours or patterns, etc,) it means you just want to get in someone’s bed.

Just a random thought.

Hong Kong

After staying in Hong Kong for the last couple of weeks (and a short visit to Malaysia) I have come to notice some peculiar trends in Asia Land.

Trend 1: the strapless dress shirt.
Before the trip, I would take it upon myself to have a cup of bubbling (pearl) tea at Tea Shop 168 and do some research on fob fashion. There was one style that I thought was very cute but thought it was very impratical, the dress worn with a shirt underneath. Usually the dress is one that has no straps so the nature of the dress tends to slip down on you, especially if you’re a normal Asian female. In short, pulling off an outfit like that would require a lot of extra manual labour from one self. But I upon arriving in Hong Kong, I have discovered the trick. The shirt it self is actually physically stitched together with the dress! Wow, the person who designed it must be smart because then a typical flat Asian doesn’t have to worry about pulling up the skirt! Yahhhhhh!

Trend 2: The trucker hat that isn’t on their head.
Coming of the MTR, I see a group of friends, the girls wearing trucker hats. But there was something funny, extremly funny, about the picture. Their hats weren’t actually on their heads, but merely placed on top of it. Then I noticed there were many other females sporting the same trucker hat look. I’m not sure why they don’t actually put the hat on so that it doesn’t get blown away but it makes their head look hilariously big. I can only assume the girls wanted a few more inches added, and thought putting a hat on their head would do the trick.

Trend 3: Walk and play on your handheld console.
This trend did not come as much of a surprise seeing as everyone is Asian. But what was interesting was how some of these people have acquired the skills to play and walk to the next train or destination at the same time, without crashing into obstacles. Some other things I noticed is that everyone who owned a PSP played a Gundam game, and everyone who owned a DS bought the light blue version or another version but personalized with stickers or a case.

I’ll post this for now. Busy repacking.

re-

If the world stopped trying to recreating, redefining, revolutionizing, reimbursing, remixing, redoing…people would become more creative, and society wouldn’t have such a lack of imagination (more like it has none.)

Take Apple for example. It released the Ipod. Great! A fancy slim MP3 player that stored more music than the average flash disk. But what did they do after that? Recreate over and over again. Each time, its the same thing and yet people insist they must buy the latest Ipod so they can claim themselves to be tech savvy. Not only is it a complete waste of money, it is a complete waste of time, time that could be used to be innovative because the word reinnovation does not exist.

Plus in a world that condemns remixing, and remaking of products, you might as well be creative or else get in trouble by an outdated copyright law.

re: Awakening [again]

The latest chappy I posted had a lot of musical inspiration embedded within. Which I’m going to explain in this post.
Awakening

The inspiration of the title, and most of the plot work. The song lyrics emphasized dreams, and the feeling of comfort when you’re by the side of a loved one. Which were kind of key themes in the story I guess because Kino kept wanting to return to the dream, but she couldn’t cause it was technically a nightmare. Oh and at the end were the two of them were finally together…although not really. I made an AMV with this song, and I posted it on my blog sometime ago, so that’s one of the reasons why I have the “again” bit there.

again

Is a song by YUI and is the first opening of the new FMA series, FullMetal Alchemist: Brotherhood. The title itself is like a key idea in the story. Although you will not know this because I haven’t posted or finished writting that section of the story, Kino has a bad habit of digging her nails into her arm due to anxiety, so that’s why Yuki says “You even started hurting yourself again!” Originally, I wasn’t going to make her emo, but then I had to find a way to get Yuki to yell at her, cause I don’t understand men and their idiotic pridal logic (female logic is also retarded too…) I tried to make her even more emo than previously. I mean digging your nails into your arm…yeah hurts, but the marks will disappear eventually. But doing it several times for a month is definitely not good for you. And yes I will admit I have tried doing this in the past…not telling how far that past is though ^____^
The fact that I posted a post with the same title is another thing.
Oh and running away, Kino tends to run away from things a lot which I find is really annoying, but what can you do? Also, I tried to add some parallelism to the first chapter I posted called Aruarian Dance so if this was a book, you should have that “haven’t I read this before?” If not, my bad.
The lyrics kind of worked well with the story too.
For example
Shiroi nooto ni tsuzutta you ni
Motto sunao ni hakidashitai yo
Nani kara nogaretain da
Genjitsu tte yatsu
As if having written it in a white notebook
I want to divulge myself more honestly
What do I want to flee from?
…Something known as reality?
The overall general solution to Kino’s problems is to be more honest, and to let people try and understand her. But often times she doesn’t cause she’s too scared that they’ll see the ugliness of her, so she runs away before she’s hurt.
Which is why it annoys me to run away because it hurts either way. You stay with someone, but you’ll end up feeling crushed whenever your around them, and when you try and leave the relationship behind, you feel even worst. It’s a stupid endless cycle of hurt.

Chopin Waltz in E minor Op. Posthumus

I’m actually playing this waltz right now. This performance was done by the great Rubinstein. He is THE master of piano, I really like his version of this waltz. His tone makes if feel like I’m on the clouds, under the clear starry night. I actually cried the first time listening to it cause it was just so pretty. I hope to be able to play like that in the near future >___<
This is the waltz Kino and that other girl were talking about. When I was filling in the gaps and pieces of the story, I had the song on repeat, so the music has a strong influence on the writing. I tried to have it so that she was telling her story through the music in that section. The whole ups and down of not being noticed. It then occured to me after a while that the waltz was called E minor for EMO! Hahaha.
For those of you who don’t know, Steinway and Petrof are brands of pianos. Although their name changes, its the one thing people can steal from you…probably. Like me, I refer to my musical instruments as people sometimes so Kino’s babble about Petrof was just for kicks…even though I hate Petrof.

Other things I have to say…
Throughout this chapter, it should be apparent that she didn’t refer to Yuki by his name but as some person.
There was no sense of time until Yuki came, so time flows in dreams…Earlier in this post I mentioned that a month passed through this chapter so yeah there really is no sense of time at all. The next chapter based on my notes is supposed to be a recap but in Yuki’s perspective. So what he did during that month cause he did a lot of things.
I find it interesting how Fiona’s name actually rhymes with the names of people I actually dislike, hahaha. So if your name rhymes with Fiona, you might want to reevaluate yourself…just maybe.
The random blurb at the top is a warning from me. Seriously if you plan on being a writer, do not write love stories for you will kill your brain with the cheese, cause I did.
Anyway, I learned a lot of things while writing this story, hope some of you people learned something to (other than the fact that I can’t write XD)

Cool characters

from pixiv

Not recently, but in the past I had a sudden urge to read a lot of shoujo manga. What I noticed was that I was more attracted to the cool type characters, than the supposedly drop dead gorgeous looking ones. I consider tsundre as a cool type as well as the stereotypical lone wolf. When I travel to livejournal or forums, and read comments by fangirls, I realized that this might be a trend….

Maybe because the cooler you are the more you burn scenario.

Theories and Answers

Today I just had this brilliant theory that could explain the unexplainable question “What’s with fangirls and yaoi?”

First of all, lets think about the lifestyle of an average North American teenager. It is a fact that not many people read books. With the current popularity of manga, teenagers are attracted to the idea of reading an interesting story with pretty images. For girls, they’d be reading manga from the shoujo genre that depicts cute bubbly to passionate love romance story. Now in shoujo manga, the main character is often a female character who is either in love with a boy, or has a boy already in love with them. At the end of the day, the girl will always have a boy or two chasing after her. For these teenager girls, who may only read shoujo manga, are then influenced by these story ideas which makes them seem boy crazy. Of course, critical people will point out that realistically speaking, guys do not fall out of a tree, and that love isn’t simply an exchanging of kind gestures and slight possessiveness. So these fangirls are left unsatisfied with this realization of common sense and because they think that the way they want the world to revolve is the only way things can spin, they put themselves into a state of denial. “Why doesn’t he (they) like me? I’m pretty, I’m a nice person right? Maybe he’s gay? Yes that’s it! He’s gay!” Instead of being depressed, they choose to hide their bitterness by feinting ignorance of their crush’s sexual orientation.

A friend asked me “how ripped do you want your guy to be?” (not exactly how she phrased it but close enough.) I thought because some of the people who come visit my blog are males, I decided to share my answer with you just cause it might prove useful one day.

“They’d need to be rip enough to carry me for 2 km.”

Harem

Harems, what is it? It is a slang used to describe a phenomena where a specific character is surrounded by attractive members of the opposite gender. The Japanese slang originated from the Arabic word haram: the woman’s quarters in a polygynous household that is forbidden to men.

In light of the fact that formal is coming up, I thought it be hilarious to post a “how to” on harems.

An important thing I should mention, when I talk about the center, I mean the alpha male or the goddess who is surrounded by their circle of followers.

How to distinguish whether you are in a harem?
1. You are generally associated with the number of females or males surrounding you.
Ex: Keichii in Higurashi is the only main male character in the series.
2. You feel slightly unhappy when you’re friend talks about a specific person.
3. You feel slightly unhappy when that specific person talks to other people. (I sense possessiveness here.)
4. You get invites to the same event by different people that are usually the same gender.
5. You are eternally emo.

Number 1 and 4 are a given for those in the center. The rest are for those who are within the circle. To expand on number 5, the person may say they are depressed because of petty things such a their parents being unreasonably reasonable, or school. Don’t take those reasons seriously for they are only excuses to make you feel bad for them because of their so called “unrequited” love.

It is important to note that there are some people who are naturally boy/girl crazy. Therefore any signs of losing their potential mates will be met with annoying clingy, and emo defensive measures. I suggest not worrying about them for they are only jealous of you being in a harem, therefore automatically making you more attractive than them. However, if these kinds of people are your friends, I highly encourage you to dispose of them quickly for you will be in one hell of a guilt trip when you come back. Besides, what kind of friends act like parents? That’s right bitches, eat your face.

How to get into a harem
This is quite a hard topic because people within the harem already are probably there due to romantic interest. But it is possible.
Get the center to come after you. If the center of the harem is chasing you, then that automatically makes you part of his harem. If you are female, this task is done fairly easily. Studies show that men can fall in love in under 8.2 seconds, as long as you look attractive. In other words, if you are attractive, you’ll be part of a harem.

How to get out of a harem
1. Become Ugly.
2. Commit suicide (not a choice I would recommend.)
3. Get your own harem
4. Dedicate yourself to someone or something.

For males, it’s a matter of coming to terms with your females. You may think they are all your friends, but really they just want you to themselves. I suggest you either pick one, or pick none and clear things up.

For females, move on and find someone else or move into another harem, or become ugly.

Number 4 allows for you to focus forward instead of back, left, or right. It is one of the more reasonable and logical way of getting out of a harem.

What NOT to do is to try and bring other people into the harem. Ideally, you would want to do this to increase the circle size, and therefore making it easier for people to understand how you feel and pity you. Unfortunately, that just makes things worst because you might get sucked it too.

The dangers of a harem

Well one thing to be careful of is the circle. They can be deadly, as shown in School Days. Makoto lost his head, and some other pregnant girl got sliced over. Now I didn’t watch the show, so I can’t explain what really happened, but that was the end result. So, things can get pretty violent. It is important to stay sane, and calm and be strategic.

Also, watch out for girls with nice boats.

Awelot

For the past few days I have been noticing my sudden over usage of the word awesome. It got me thinking, why is the word ’some’ included in what is ‘awe inspiring’? It has some kind of negative condensation to it, even though we generally use it to encourage or praise. If I look up the word awesome in an everyday pocket dictionary, I get “dread mingled with reverence.” In other words, alarming, amazing, imposing, impressive.

Lets put this idea into a simple example. When someone beats some form of record, or achieves a high placing in competition with others, it is awesome because it is frightening to the opponents and amazing to those who are cheering. To summarize, some awe would imply that there is a dual meaning to awesome.

When I look to my not so credible resource, the pocket dictionary, the word ‘awe’ itself has a double edge sword meaning to it. This changes my previous point about ’some’ giving awe (a) negative condensation because ‘awe’ already has it embedded with its original meaning. Being awesome is a really depressing job.

To refer back to the example used earlier, someone commits some action like win a game, it is awesome because it is somewhat frightening to the opponents and somewhat amazing to those who are cheering. If there was a lot of fear, and a lot of amazement, then the word awesome does not clearly represent the situation. Rather, it was awelot. If there is a word for some awe, there should be a word for a lot of awe. In short, the word awesome, has an exaggerated meaning.

So to touch back with Earth, when you want to congratulate someone and praise them for their work, think first. Is that person really awesome?

Tales of Radiant Mythology 2

Tales of Radiant Mythology 2 Jan 9 update

Flyaway Back-On

OMG Yuri, Zelos, Jade, Guy, Spada, Leon, Chloe~~~~
OMG Tales of Vesperia battle theme don’t know title, Edge of Decision Remix
OMG opening theme is cool
OMG I want this game.