So dumb.

March 31, 2008 § 2 Comments

It is almost April, meaning a new school term for those in Japan, a new season of anime goodness, and a new set of problems for me. There are too many things to do in such a short time. I just do not want to feel like I am not doing anything.


If April was supposed to be the month of new beginnings, then I feel like I’m stuck in the past thanks recent turn of events. I hope that such a trivial matter over my stupidity will solve itself on its own.

If someone made a promise with you, then one would have known the person previously and would have trusted the person enough to agree to such a promise.
Now lets put this under a shoujo manga situation. A girl is being bullied by a bunch of classmates, when suddenly her friend came and told everyone to leave her alone. The bullies suddenly run out of the room and left the two alone. When the girl started to cry to her friend for causing him so much trouble, the friend replied with a really cheesy promise, “I will always be there for you.” The girl was relieved that her friend said those words to her.
If you were the friend, would you say that? What if it was a stranger? Would a stranger really say something like that? Not unless they are your stalkers. The point I am making here is that if you do not believe in what you are saying, then there is no meaning behind your words. You are just a talking duck who just wants to create some cheesy fantasy shoujo world similar to the above story. Is it so wrong to have a desire to live in a dream world? No, but to selfishly place an opinion on someone in order to get the expected outcome is.

What I find even worst is trying to hide behind a group of people by using the pronoun “we”. Everyone uses the word all the time but it sometimes does not cross people’s minds that the word “we” is plural and thus a group of individuals could potentially be dragged into something that does not necessarily relate to them, or something they wish to not be apart of.

They say communicating with someone when they have a problem, or talking it out with other people will help with finding a solution to a problem. But I think it is a shame that some people can not seem to understand that selfishly wanting will not bring about the true solution to the problem. Makes me wonder if these people will ever change?


Cat got your tongue?

March 27, 2008 § 3 Comments

What did I do?
That was what I thought…
Desperately searching for the truth,
I found the answer.
Yet the butterflies won’t let me dance.

Fantasies are fantasies,
Page after page,
Character after character,
Sappy love stories and Heroic triumph.
Yet why do I feel lost in my own story?

I understand.
Was I oblivious to the fact…
In the end…
yet lost, confused, empty.

The words I want to say,
feel like rotten lies.
The smile I want to show,
doesn’t seem to reveal the heart.
I want to apologize to you but…
Yet the cat has got my tongue.


Wrote about how I’m feeling at the moment. Truly the cat has got my tongue. Slowly I’m starting to realize that maybe I brought it upon myself. I ask myself “Why me? Why choose me?” I’ve asked that question from the beginning but… The more I look at how confused I am, the more guilty I feel for the people around me and at fault. I…I can’t bring myself to…

I can’t even finish my sentence.

Sorry if this post is strange…sorry minna-san…sorry…sorry…


March 27, 2008 § 1 Comment

Ruby and I spent last night making a smiley that could be used by all Asian children who have parents that enjoy coming into the room randomly to see what you are doing.

[OTL] or [j] or [ ] represents a cardboard box. Meaning “I’m undercover, parents in the room, you don’t see me shhhhhh.”

!j or “It’s SHOW time.” would obviously signal that you have survived and that the situation is now under control. The ! being the ! seen in the scene between Lucario and Snake. j being Snake in his sitting position (the dot in the j is the head.)

Hope this helps~!

Genius…(part 2)

March 20, 2008 § 1 Comment

Recap from part 1, a genius is someone who is simply someone who is smarter. It’s hard to explain, however recently I have decided to try and make myself a genius by fulfilling some of the common links found between the geniuses I find around me.

Now, I think my opinion has changed slightly in the sense that geniuses may only appear smarter. Though it is also true that geniuses such as Mozart and Einstein had higher or more active brain activity, along with a few odd quirks. They were and still are geniuses. But now a days, you don’t find people like them. Maybe because there were so few of them in the first place. Another theory could be that they are getting stupider because they are trying to adapt with the rest of humanity. Whatever the case may be a genius is a genius.

As I reflect upon over what I did and the overall outcome, I have to say that the experiment failed in terms of results. Even though I did all those trivial things such as putting on glasses, and not tying my hair up, my overall grades have not improved. Now that I think about it, they have gotten worst. Which isn’t very hopeful for me and other people who suffer from being really “logistup” (logical yet stupid.) But I guess my opinion on that changed as well. Actually, my view on things changed quite a bit but yet I feel like nothings changed at all. The important thing is that as long as there is a will to change, change is possible. However, whether that change will lead me onto the path of being a genius, I won’t know until I see my next report card. Even if I want to do better, it never seems to work out that way. This reminds me of those episodes of Naruto when one of the characters are dying or something, and then suddenly they get a burst of energy. That happens in every shounen anime…

Hey! Since geniuses are getting dumber, it might be easier to catch up to them, you never know.


March 20, 2008 § Leave a comment

I just read an essay which was written by Shige, from NEWS. It was very good and I want to share his words with everyone ^^,

But why can’t I decide about my name myself? Thinking like this, I thought that I wanted at least to decide my nickname by myself. Well, it wasn’t that great a nickname, it just proves I had no sense.

Silly Shige~ hehe
link to translation

Uni Touring

March 19, 2008 § 1 Comment

Panda-kun looks out the window~Panda-kun and Harmony homework

Panda-kun in a hotel. Ah! He's sideways neh?The sunset is pretty~
This March Break, I took the time to go visit McGill and Queens university. I also visited my cousin in Ottawa, which was really nice even after the dreadfully annoying snowstorm.

More pictures taken on the roadAlmost at Montreal!

You can check out the photos I took. Don’t expect any pro photos because one, I don’t own a pro camera like otou-san does, and two, I’m not skilled when it comes to taking pictures.

Palaise de Congress (I think.) Yuki~More pictures from the hotel window

Is that Starbucks?! SINCE WHEN?!Sonia~ yum yum

Panda-kun drinking bubble tea~BUBBLE TEA IN MONTREAL YAH!

Montreal is really nice when there’s lots of snow. I remember the Montreal trip last year and it was super sunny and warm. I also remember visiting the year before during the march break, it was all slushy and rather gloomy. Quite a contrast to my recent visit. It was very lively and bright (from the snow) chilly too. I also managed to find a new Chinese bakery in the china town. I have to say, their egg tarts meet my standards ^^ I guess because it’s BRAND new. I also discovered that inside this amazing new bakery there’s Tea Shop 168! Meaning I won’t die from lack of bubble tea if I leave for Montreal.

I visited both McGill’s music school and McGill itself. I have to say that their new music school building was amazing. Apparently, the entire building was designed so that it was sound proof. In other words, I can scream and talk as loud as I want in a room, and nobody will hear me. There is a sound recording studio that is more like a hall than a studio. It is HUGE, and it’s supposed to fit large orchestra’s such as the Montreal symphony orchestra and a choir. Also, the tour guide said that the hall was built first, then layered with a thick layer of concrete before building the rest of the building to ensure that outside noise will not disrupt the recording. That is what I call pro. Also their music library has a section dedicated to music scores. The have everything from chamber music to full orchestrated scores. There was also a computer lab that only composition students were allowed in, but it was so cool. The computers had piano keyboards hooked up to them so that you could compose music using some software program.

Ah, its blurryIt moves!

le metro c'est coolQueen's Library

One of Queen's residenceMore residence

Queens was different in terms of atmosphere and set up. Queens, though everything is relatively close by, everything felt very random for me. Also the atmosphere was really uptight. I didn’t find anything particularly interesting or different about Queens other than the fact that class sizes are smaller than McGill. Maybe that’s why I needed to distract myself by taking pictures of Queens…maybe not.

Sorry for the late post ><


March 15, 2008 § Leave a comment

So, yesterday was white day and it was pi day. Anyway, I didn’t have time to write anything but, nothing especially happened so it doesn’t really matter. Ah, demo I wished I could have participated in the draw so that I’d get flowers from Yamapi ><

Recently I went to Montreal and visited McGill, and I also went to visit Queen’s University. I will be posting about that soon hopefully ^^,

Ah Super Smash Bros BRAWL is amazing~ though it takes some getting use to because the controls are different.

Recent addicted song is Konayuki (powder snow) by Remioromen which was the insert song of 1 Litre of Tears. Its one of those sad songs that make you want to remember things that happened in the past, and then look forward. I feel like in that sense it fits really well with the drama 1 Litre of Tears.

Compiled clips of 1 Litre of Tears, may contain spoilers.

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