Only one talking
September 16, 2008 § 4 Comments
I noticed this a long time ago, but whenever I’m talking to friends, I’m usually the only one talking. Makes me feel like my “rants” are rather boring. So then I end up talking more because I’m trying to get them to say something in response to what I’m saying, but in the end it never happens and I just get left unheard…most of the time (this could also explain my abnormally loud voice.) Then I start wondering if I’m an annoying person, but then I realized that I already know that I’m an annoying person because my train of thoughts don’t usually stop, and creates a really long run on sentence. So then I get annoyed at the fact that these people do not respond, when they know I don’t plan on changing my typing patterns because it’s how I think (I think this is how I get 500 words/min speeds on that typing game.) But then I don’t want to get people angry because I’m angry at them for annoying me because I want to talk to them, even though it’s just me spewing out trivial stuff about anime, yamapi or NEWS, or emo asian topics that get everyone emo. So the true intentions of my rants are to try and engage in an interesting conversation, yet I always end up bothering the people on the other end because they never respond, so I have no idea if they (my friends) are getting everything and reading it. So recently I have decided to try something new and try prompting questions such as “how are you?” and “what are you doing?” but those questions get boring quickly, and also that isn’t really a conversation. Then I reflected a bit longer and wanted to ask if they actually read most of my rants? Most of them would probably answer “Hell no!” cause it be a waste of time, but I wonder if there is someone out there who listens to everything I say? Cause it’s one thing to not respond, but it’s an entirely different thing to not bother listening.
If someone made it this far, then that’s cool.