君の知らない物語

March 14, 2010 § 1 Comment

“How are you doing?”
The boy with brown hair, perfectly gelled as usual, grabbed a seat next to Kino, who was sitting at her assigned desk. She was doing the usual. A combination of JRPGs, and Skullcandy earbuds. Of course, that meant she didn’t hear Eric. She nodded in acknowledgement of his presence but didn’t give much of a thought to identify who she was acknowledging. Girls watching looked at Kino’s actions as criminal, while young males blushed at her coldness. After the Grandia Ball, it would seem that her popularity within the student male population increased. She noticed this as suddenly more people were beginning to interact with her. Something she felt slightly uncomfortable with. It was abnormal for Kino, but its common sense. Making her entrance in a school wide event looking dramatically more stunning than her usual indifferent look (school uniform, with hair bundled together in a clip,) would definitely spark some interest.
“Earth to Kino,” the boy pulled one of her earbuds out of her ear, whispering into it. Kino turning her head away from the screen looked at Eric straight in the eye before jumping out of her chair and collapsing into the wall.
“Holy shit!”
“Hahaha, surprise! Did you miss me?”
“Miss you? Like I’d take the effort to miss someone who just scared the daylights out of me,” she spoke bitterly as she returned herself to her chair and game. Her right eye twitched as she saw her party receive the finishing blow. She let out a frustrated sigh before turning it off, her anger definitely showing as she violently tossed the portable system into her bag, almost missing.
“Violent today aren’t we. Anyway, did you have fun Friday night?”
“I’m not quite sure.”
“You must have met up with the Pelletier boy right?”
“So what if I did?”
“I’m just curious. I’m also curious as to what his reaction would be if he saw me sitting here.”
It wouldn’t take long for Eric to find out, as he suddenly fell of his chair, as if he was yanked off it and pushed to the side.
“Morning Kino~!”
Kino who watched it all happen wasn’t amused, but as soon as Yuki flashed that smile, she turned bright red. She tried to cover most of her face with her arm, as she leaned against it looking away. She wanted to respond, but she was too scared her racing heartbeat could be heard just by opening her mouth.
“I’m liking this,” Eric said, as he now stood over the two of them with an enjoyable grin.
“Eric, would it kill you to leave?”
“Why? I was just having a conversation with Kino.”
“That’s precisely why you should leave.”
“Ah, don’t be such a downer. See, we’re all friends here right?”
“Wrong.”
“Ouch. You must be really hate me now don’t you?”
“Hate…I don’t think that’s strong enough.”
“Oh ho! Hold your horses there. Just because I like you, doesn’t mean my father will go easy on you if start anything, ya’ know? But do whatever you want, I’m going to have a conversation with Kino, and you’re going to watch me in Jea-lou-sy~” Eric purposely sounding out the last word to push Yuki’s switch, but the one who slammed their hand down on the table wasn’t Yuki…
The force of Kino’s hand slamming against the table, managed to push her off her chair as she yelled,
“WOULD THE TWO OF YOU JUST SHUT UP?!”
She breathed in heavily, glaring at the both of them before kicking her desk, and stomping away.
“Morning Ki—“
A familiar face waved to her, but Kino was too blind in anger and frustration to even notice her.
The two boys watched Kino as she stormed out of the classroom, while Nadako took her seat next to Kino’s now absent desk.
“Yuki, please go after her or else she’s going to be late for form again,” she spoke calmly, but with a hint of annoyance for Nadako was counting the number of times Kino is late for class, and she knew that being late too many times would warrant a detention. She was also counting the number of times Kino as left the classroom, in the same fashion, with great annoyance.

Kino peered through the windows, leaning against the warm heater, making sure not to burn her leg by touching the metal part. Squirrels and birds would often pop up from underneath the ivy that comes right to the edge of the glass, and around. It was one of those days where the weather wouldn’t make up its mind, as if it was confused as to whether it should be sunny, or cloudy. Just like how Kino couldn’t understand what she was thinking.
“You got something on your mind?”
“It’s coming soon,” she spoke calmly, but her insides were shaking. The two feelings were so similar, yet on a totally different scale of intensity. That feeling she used to harbour for Eric, yet was completely erased. It was strange, and frustrating.
“I wonder if the weather is going to let up.”
Kino wondered too, when will things start making sense? She shook her head and clapped the palms of her hands against her cheeks, trying to wake herself up. But that didn’t work out to well. She turned around to Yuki with a pout that was too cute for him to even think of being worried about her. He laughed at himself for even thinking there was something wrong with Kino, placing the palm of his hand against the cheek that appeared the reddest and stroked it with his thumb with that charming smile.
“Silly, don’t try to hurt yourself to wake yourself. It’ll ruin your cute face.”
Kino jumped back into the heater, almost burning herself, her heart skipped for a second there. There really was something wrong with her.
“So, should we meet at that spot?”
“The cliff?”
“It is the best spot to make wishes…”
Yuki chuckled at her silly idea, his enthusiasm and energy just seemed to have outmatched hers for once.
“Sure. I’ll bring the tent.”

And she wondered to herself…

The sun was setting, the colour red travelling the farthest as Kino skipped to her locker to retrieve her things before walking back to the dorm. As she was about to turn the corner she heard Yuki and Lily conversing, and if she wasn’t curious, she would have just walked into their conversation.
“I’ve arranged with your attendant that you will be having dinner with my parents and I tomorrow at around 7. Of course, we will be going downtown, so make sure you arrive promptly to pick me up.”
“Why do I have to pick you up?”
“Just do as I say.”
“Fine, but I’m only staying for an hour.”
“What? But you would have hardly eaten anything then.”
“2 hours at most.”
“Yuki, don’t be absurd.”
“Well then I’m not coming. My grandmother already explained to your parents we won’t be signing it, and you aren’t going to be able to convince me either.”
“Why do you keep thinking I’m acting on my parents behalf?! Yuki, I’m tired of you making me out like I’m sort of puppet. I have a mind of my own too and what if it just so happens that I just wanted to have a simple dinner between the four of us?”
“Then I’d think you’re a complete psychopath who wants in my pants,” he said bluntly. It was something new for Kino. He was always teasing her, but never has she heard him talk rudely to someone else.
“I will see you tomorrow.”
She stood there silently, listening to the bang of his locker being shut. Holding her books tightly in her arms, with a surprised expression, she wondered if there was more to the situation between Lily and him. She realized only afterwards that Yuki might not be able to come see the meteor shower tomorrow with her. She sighed as Lily came around from the corner. Her emerald eyes and matching stud earrings glimmered in the sunlight as they stared down Kino as she walked by casually, “if you were looking for Yuki, you just missed him.” She smiled at her with a perfect set of pearly whites, lips glossed evenly, and symmetrical no matter what angle you look at it from. Her very presence made Kino sick to her stomach.
“I wasn’t looking for him, I was merely returning from my last class.”
“Oh really, I hope so. It would be terrible if you were cause—“
Kino closed her eyes and proceeded to ignore Lily, walking by her to her locker. Lily looked at Kino shocked that she just walked away from her, as if that’s never happened to her before! Spoiled bitch.

And she wondered to herself…

It was a usual morning, Yuki waking up to the uncomfortable atmosphere, in his king sized bed.
“Good morning Young Master Yuki.”
“Morning Hilda.”
“Today’s breakfast is French toast with fruit yogurt. Would you like Coffee or Tea this morning?”
“Coffee, the usual.”
“Right away sir.”
This was a standard conversation at the Pelletier’s household. When Yuki walked out of his room dressed for school, a man in a suit nods his head to Yuki and greets him, “Good Morning Yuki. You’ve returned to the main mansion,”
“Just for the night Sir Odin,” he smiled pleasantly, as he slowed down his pace to walk with the man to the main foyer.
“I’m sure you understand the Pelletier’s stance on the Bloomsbury’s agreement after yesterday’s business meeting.”
“Of course.”
“It seems they’re trying to use their daughter as a means of delegation.”
“Which I am aware of. I don’t plan to keep long at the dinner meeting. Although, it is a pleasure to meet with the Bloomsbury, I do want to make sure that myself, and the Pelletier’s are clear.”
“Hahaha, that’s my nephew. Besides, you don’t seem too interested in that Lily girl of theirs. I wouldn’t put it against ya’. She’s too much of a hassle if you ask me.”
“She does hold herself in high respect.”
A maid bows as the two of them exit the main doors and out into the drive way.
“Well I will see you next week then.”
“You too.”
The car door shuts, and Yuki is driven away.
It was the same car that would then take him and Lily to their restaurant destination. Yuki resting his head against his fist, looking out the window as the car passed by boutique stores and designer brand names.
“Yuki, have you been to see any movies recently?”
“I have.”
“Which one?”
“The Japanese one,” he sighed. It wasn’t like he was too lazy to remember the title, he was just too lazy to inform Lily. He was anxious, watching the sun set slowly and the dark blue sky begin to appear on the other horizon.
“Ah, that animated film. I heard excellent reviews on it, but I found the summary far too childish for me. Ahahaha…” Lily laughed to herself, haughtily.
Yuki was anxious, one of his leg shaking up and down as he counted the seconds that went by, waiting for the clock to strike.

“Sorry I can’t come.”
“That’s fine. We usually go by ourselves anyway,” she gave a weak smile to Nadako.
Kino looked out the setting sun, packing the baggie of cookies last in her backpack.
She heard a knock on the door and stood back up looking at the door into her room.
“You called?” Eric opening the door fully, revealing himself fully to her. The awkward hesitation from this morning gone.
“Mind giving me a ride home tonight?”
“Weren’t you going to stay at Pelletier’s place tonight?”
“I highly doubt he’s even going to show up,” she her smiled stretched even more, tilting her head, acting as if the whole situation was hilarious.
“Wait, Kino, if you want me to walk you home I’ll meet up with you—“
“Nadako should just get some rest. I don’t want you passing out in the middle of your contest.”
“Alright, if you say so…You aren’t worried I’ll do something to you?”
“Silly,” she giggled at Eric, “You would have tried already if that was the case.”
Eric looked at her and smiled shaking his head as if she completely figured him out.
“Give me a call then and I’ll drop you back to your room.”
This was how she was normally, abnormally cheerful and enthusiastic about the things that scared her the most. No use being upset, no use trying to cry. But for some reason she felt so wrong smiling.

And she wondered to herself…

As Kino climbed up the moist grass, equipped with flashlight, and a backpack filled with food. Sweat rolling down her face, acting as an adhesive for her wet hair. For some reason her chest would cringe as her determination and pride got in her way again. When she reached the top of the hill, she looked out in the dark and saw the vast black sky sparkle with the stars, planets, and the moon. Breathing in and out deeply, trying to recuperate from her trek, she pulled out her phone and checked the time. The screen illuminating against her face as the countdown began but no messages were received. After a few breathes, she turned off the screen and tightly squeezed her phone, as if she was trying to control herself from not throwing it over the cliff.
She sat down in the cool wet grass, and proceeded to snack away, at the bag of cookies, where there was room for two. She shivered twice, and closed both her eyes before looking up at the sky to see two tears sparkle by and blur back into nothingness like the feeling of Kino’s toes and fingertips slowly beginning to melt. Curling up into a ball, as she strained her neck to look up, she felt parts of her frozen cold cheeks feel something warm trickle down at the sight of more wishes were made. Not realizing the blurry twinkle in the sky were her own two misty eyes.
“I’d like to make myself believe…that planet Earth turns…slowly,” she hummed, as if she had no other wish to make as the night sky began to cry. Resorting to granting other’s people’s wishes rather than her own, as if she lost the human ability to wish. She was much too prideful, and stubborn to be selfish to wish for the happiness of herself and others. Her mind was blank, confused, murky. What was it she was trying to tell herself that she couldn’t understand? Kino pulled her hands towards her chest and closed her eyes, feeling her heart send waves of blood through her entire body. Of course it was normal to have your heart pumping out blood, but for some reason, she could feel her chest squeeze inside.
“It’s hard to say that I’d rather stay awake when I’m asleep.”
“Cause everything is never as it seems when I fall asleep.”
Kino turned her head, hearing the crackling of footsteps, quickly turning her so her face was facing the other direction, as a thick fleece draped over her shoulders, and the man settled down on the ground next to her, perhaps too close, for her to contain any sense of composure. Every part of her numb body stiffening as she felt the warmth radiate off him. The backpack he had on went thud and clink as it dropped to the ground, gently.
“What?”
The boy reached for the cookie bag and popped it into his mouth casually looking straight at Kino, with his warm eyes, the light from the lantern illuminating the face she wished she could hide in the darkness.
“I thought you weren’t coming,” Kino spoke with unheard stutters, and chattering teeth.
“I wouldn’t miss this for the world.”
“Then, what was…”
With a simple glance of his golden eyes, he cut Kino’s sentence off, and caused her heart to stop.
With a simple touch of his large warm hands to her numb wet cheeks, her heart lunged into motion. With a simple call of her name, her heart was in a frantic sprint. Kino’s poor heart was about to explode and she couldn’t understand why. As if she was being squeezed by anxiety, the feeling of being frozen stiff by something so warm, the feeling of wishing and wanting she was void of before, she couldn’t comprehend it. They were all new, and unique to the function that was Yuki. It was only when Yuki’s forehead gently rested against Kino’s, his eyes closed as if listening to her silent debate, did she realize the proximity between her and Yuki was terribly close, too close.
Opening his eyes slowly he whispered “I’m right here.”
There was a long silence. Kino’s eyes were trapped in his gaze, his very presence places her in a maze.
“Yuki, there’s something wrong with me…There’s definitely something wrong with me,” her voice trembled, scared of what might be happening to her, but she couldn’t even describe her symptoms.
“What is it?”
“I’m freezing cold…” she chattered, and trembled.
Yuki laughed as he quickly grabbed a thick blanked and wrapped it around the two of them, his arm around Kino’s shoulders as he let her lean on him.
Kino, successfully denying whatever she wanted to say to Yuki, only kept thinking. Why does just sitting next to him make her heart beat? Why did just hearing his voice make her feel happy? Why did everything suddenly start revolving around him? It was a matter of time before Kino started to think that Yuki was like a vicious disease, and that his very presence was infecting her thoughts.
She slowly caved in, her mind going blank as her lips curved into a small smile as she let herself bath in his warmth. Snuggling up closer then what Yuki was used too, but he didn’t mind, and neither did she.
Kino’s frozen cheek slowly started to turn rose colour and she looked up at the sky mouthing out, I wish I knew why my heart is beating so fast.

“That’s Deben, Altair, Vega…” he pointed to the summer triangle. Kino looking up at the sky finally found Orihime-sama, but couldn’t help but frown when Hikoboshi-sama was no where to be found. [i]Isn’t she lonely?[/i]
“Yuki, why do you think people believe shooting starts make wishes come true?”
“I don’t know Kino. That make a lot of people’s lives easier if they knew right?”
“Then those who are unlucky, can get a chance too…you know?”
Yuki nodded silently. He was calm, yet nervous, trying to control his male instincts and let them get the better of him.
“It’s kind of sad when you think about it…,” Kino sighed as she saw two more stars shoot by.
“What is?”
“How sometimes we have to rely on something like a star to create a miracle.”
“How is that sad?”
“No matter how much you work hard, there’s always a force somewhere out there making the impossible possible for people who deserve it or don’t.”
“Wouldn’t that make things more fun though?”
Kino looked up at him and blinked before smirking, “since when were you the type who cared about having fun? Last time I checked, you had to leave my recital because of work.”
She spoke, biting her tongue with her remark, almost regretting she said it, but it was still true.
“You know I didn’t want to leave! I wanted to stay till the very end of your concert and congratulate you with a BIG hug!”
“Uhh, no thanks,” Kino looked away laughing nervously because knowing Yuki, he would have done it in front of the entire audience too. She wasn’t particularly too fond of igniting the rage of many of Yuki’s fans. Yuki smiled as he brought her closer.
“Thank you.”
“For what?”
“For making my night. You don’t know how dull my day has been.”
“You’re welcome then…”

As the light show died down, and as their yawns grew larger, the calm natural silence was stirred by the call of Yuki’s plain ringtone. Kino quickly sat up as Yuki reached for his back pocket. Slipping out of the covers they shared. The warmth from where she leaned against Yuki dissipated and froze again as she curled up shivering once again.
“Hey…”
“Where did you go?” another girl’s voice was on the other line.
Kino sighed, the smile she had disappearing. Her eyebrows arched in a way that made her look disappointed, yet her eyes reflected emptiness. Yuki looked down at Kino’s back and sighed, ruffling his hair with his hand in frustration at the timing of the call.
“I told you I was going to leave early.”
“I know, but at least say good bye.”
“If I remember correctly, I excused myself from the dinner.”
“Don’t try and make my parents not like you anymore than they have.”
“Look Lily, I’m…the company is not interested in signing that agreement with your parents, so just let it go already.”
“Anyway, just come escort me home.”
“Wait, its 3 in the morning, why are you not home?”
“I should ask you the same question.”
Kino leaned forward, and crawled towards Yuki’s backpack and started packing everything for him, as if knowing he was going to leave. With a click of the buckle, and a zip of the zipper, she stood back up, folding the blanket. She didn’t bother looking at him, she just stood there frozen stiff.
“Why do you have to be so troublesome sometimes?”
“You tell me why cause my lips are sealed. Now hurry up or else my parents are going to have a fit,” the girl, Lily, hung up abruptly as she barked orders to Yuki as if he was her slave. He sighed in frustration before turning to Kino holding his stuff for him.
“It must be heavy for you…”
“I’m not as weak as you think I am.”
“Sorry about this. You can walk back to the dorm right?”
“I texted Eric already,” those words, the name shot through Yuki. It was hard to swallow the feeling he just had, as if it came to him as a shock. It was clearly written all over his face with a frown. Why couldn’t he be the one who took her home? Why was the world getting in his way? His wish was obviously not coming true tonight.
He held the backpack with one arm and glanced at Kino who had bear arms and legs. He tossed his coat to her, revealing a clean white dress shirt, wrinkled where she leaned on him. She caught the jacket by the arm and hesitantly slipped her arms into it. Yuki flashed a smile to Kino before turning his back and walking back into the woods. Just before he disappeared Kino rushed to the entrance and screamed out his name, “Yuki!”
Yuki quickly turned around, “what’s wrong?”
She looked at him with a scared look. She knew the two of them would have to part ways. She knew he’d leave her like this, but wondered.
“See ya tomorrow.”
She stood there, watching him disappear into the darkness, and the rustling slowly fading out. The sound of a car engine revved up and sped away, and Kino fell to her knees, she snuggled herself into his coat and breathed in an out, trying to keep herself composed. Because for some strange region, she felt something chip and tear inside. The magnitude of the pain was worst then anything she felt before. She was frustrated, extremely frustrated. How come she feels like the world was becoming an endless rollercoaster? How come the tears won’t come out? How come Yuki had such a strong impression on her?

And she wondered too herself…
強がる私は臆病で
興味がないようなふりをしてた
だけど
胸を刺す痛みは増してく
ああそうか 好きになるって
こういう事なんだね

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