April 20, 2012 § Leave a comment
It’s been so long. Since the last post, since the last time I spoke, since the last time I have posted one of these kinds of posts: the kind filled with pure fury. But, what’s intriguing about this time is that it has really been a while since I have publically voiced an opinion on one specific person. It should be known that the majority of these people I speak about, I have since dismissed all forms of communications with them, or have plans to cease communication with them. So, if you think anybody on Facebook and thinks in their tiny little ass skull: “hmm I disagree” ; go masturbate cause it already sounds like you’re fucking yourself with something (tentacle monster under your bed, or multiple vibrators.) Yes, I just made this incredibly uncomfortable for all of you to read.
Comfort is important when it comes to a home. But, when people moan and whine like this is the last night of our lives (how many times have I heard that phrase from any American pop tune?) it bugs me. It should bug other people to. That’s a discomfort. Then, when I am sticking my junk in your face and then pissing all over it; this should make you feel uncomfortable (or turned on.) If it bugs you, then it bugs me too. If I’m not apart of the conversation, I don’t need to know. Please exhibitionist, go back where you came from. The world doesn’t need to know when it’s exam period. Unfortunately, if hadn’t come to care about people, I would have just parked my butt in the library. Being social is suffering.
I have managed to avoid shitstorms for almost over a year because I adopted my personal rule. I treat you the way you want me to treat you, then I treat you the same way. I hold the most vile expectations out of you, and you continue to prove me wrong. I don’t think highly of just anyone. This is how I have approached with failed expectations since everyone is a liar. How can people expect me to be friends with them if they tell me one thing, then tell a different tale to every single other person. I don’t feel anymore special than your other friends (or what few you have) if you tailor your pretty song specific to each person. No you can’t take my money, and no you can’t ask me to pay you with attention you attention whore. How can people expect me to be friends with them when they want to succeed in ruining my already ruined life just because they were curious? Curiousity and worry are NOT the same thing. If you worry about someone, you help them out regardless of how retarded, and mentally degrading it is. If you’re curious on the other hand, you’re just asking for a death sentence because now the ENTIRE WORLD has their wheels spinning and sucks up attention. The mind blowing part is I end up being the center of the black hole. Not the attention whore. Only Flay in Gundam SEED thinks in this way. Flay purposely goes out of her way to manipulate Kira’s feelings so that he constantly feels guilty, so that he constantly is pressured to make it up to her. She simply dropped Sai and jumped Kira’s ship in a span of an episode just mere episodes after Kira failed to protect her father from getting killed in action. She even gave up her virginity to him so that he is now physically responsible for her. Sai obviously doesn’t take this for very long and goes to confront her. From Cagalli’s standpoint, Sai was just being a desperate creep who doesn’t know when to back down when a girl says no. Then Kira comes in acting almighty because he’s more emo than the rest of them, and that they don’t care about his feelings except Flay. Now Sai just looks like a sore loser and everyone around him is just telling him to give up and go figure his shit out. Kira obviously develops a lot of issues because he’s such an innocent and kind hearted hero. In summary, within a span of 3-4 episodes Flay has lost her father, dumped Sai, and fucked Kira. THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS HORRIBLE WOMAN.
Screaming and fighting isn’t the answer, but sometimes it feels like it would have been the most effective. Sure, I’ll destroy you and make your life miserable, but that’s when I can afford to bite karma in the face. My life is ruined and it just keeps getting worst, like I can handle having my friends (even if I hate some of them) go against me when I need them the most. Does not mean I just let things slide. I admit, I screwed myself over in doing so. I am not going to disclose how because that’s how this situation started. I hated myself for not saying anything before. Nobody even bothered to listen to me when I even said anything anyway (nbd, jerkface and creeps were a huge waste of my time.) As of current, I hate myself for saying too much. Just because I expect shit to happen on a daily basis, doesn’t mean I will act like it’s nbd; especially when it’s foiling my plots and making things unnecessarily turbulent. All the layers of my life is just converging and folding over in one spot. I really don’t appreciate it, especially when I was making such good progress. Oh, how things have overcomplicated themselves with time. So, I keep being vague, but not shut my mouth.
This is my withdrawl letter. I’m raising the white flag. Feel free to keep chirping little bird cause I don’t care about my dumb ideas. I don’t care what anyone thinks. I don’t care if it’s my loss. Who needs love and friends? I’ll just replace you all with cats. Happiness is fairly cheap for me. When I die from an unplanned suicide (ie an accident) you’re all going to get the last laughs.
I feel like I’m the greatest person in the world, but feeling kind of stupid because I have an exam still tonight. This really messes with my mind.
March 18, 2012 § Leave a comment
New morning routine. Now set in stone.
Wake up at 8:00
Smack yourself silly and open your door.
Feed the cat and get ready for school.
5 min of powers:
-posing infront of the mirror
-singing maru kaite chikyuu
-doodle 5 pandas
Get timmies if weather permits (get yourself some coffee woman!)
Early for class? Carry around Art of War (then move on to Feast of Crows.)
Better do this in the name of love and pride, yo! This time is for real! Get your shit together and throw it at the fan. Let them spout. Let them encourage. Show them why you’re a pesstimist. You will do as they say; and if you were to fail, every single one of them will eat their words when you die trying!
December 18, 2011 § Leave a comment
I really enjoy this video. Since the song was produced by livetune, I’m already instantly bias towards it. However, the video itself clearly depicts the phenomena that Hatsune Miku, Vocaloid, has caused: an invigorating subculture of pure creativity. In the video, there’s the producer, there’s the musician, there’s lyrics writer, there’s the artist, there’s the video producer all collaborating and pooling their talents together to make one youtube (well, nico nico) video. The viewers hype and it spreads across the world to inspire someone to Google Hatsune Miku. I’ve been a fan of vocaloid, not for the songs and definitely not for the voice, but for that creative amature spirit. It’s really inspiring to see that what was once an underground kind of activity has now become a competetive force in the music industry (in Japan at least.) Everyone can be a creator with Vocaloid.
July 2, 2011 § Leave a comment
March 14, 2011 § 1 Comment
A comment to a pixiv post in regards to the recent burst of Hetalia fanart of Kiku Honda (Japan) and the Earthquake that happened on March 11, 2011.
I kind of get the feeling I’m missing something; lost in translation if you will. Maybe because I haven’t seen some of the images being posted on pixiv that are being refered to (ie they were removed).
From my understanding (of the Google translate English), I don’t think they’re necessarily asking you to STOP your “freedom of expression” but rather to think before you act; don’t be reckless; be responsible. They even specified artists to use disclaimers if there is a slight chance someone would be offended and you still wish to publish the work. In addition, it is listed what they thought was “imprudent” as if they were trying to clarify that for us. People are entitled to their opinions and artist must be conciously aware of that [even if they don’t give a damm]
I do agree that artists need to be careful with their intentions. If the Japanese express offense from something the artist drew, then it is the artist’s responsibility to respect their opinion. In this case, it might be easier to just remove your work than try to explain it in words, especially how easy it is for both parties to misunderstand each other with the obvious language and cultural barrier. But that right is reserved solely to the artist’s discretion.
A lot of people in the fandom seem to be commenting more on the fact that it is WAY TOO SOON, but I am sorry to say: but that’s how art work. For example (spoiler alert), when Mami was decapitated in episode 3 of Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica, there was a significant number of joke fanart. For someone who took her death so serious (ie that guy who cried during his review on youtube), it would have been considered too soon. But the principality is still there: if an artist wants to express something, it will be done sooner rather than later. Yes, some of the art may be insensitive and perhaps it is too soon (I mean, there is a time and place for everything.) But as I stated in my quote, there needs to be respect from both the artist and the people who find themselves offended. In order for that to happen, both parties need to be concious of one another. This is what it means to have freedom of expression.
Man, the things I do for Hetalia at 4 in the morning. Wish I was like this with studying
March 9, 2011 § Leave a comment
I AM STILL WAITING FOR THIS GOD DAMN MOVIE! Since there is no news on its cancellation either…THIS BETTER BE THE BEST MOVIE I HAVE EVER SEEN! Fucking script writer and her dumb cancer (that was mean I know.) She might as well hand the pen over to someone else. I’m sure they’ll be just as incompetent. If anybody finds out a tentative date, that would make me a lot happier.
March 8, 2011 § Leave a comment
There’s nothing unusual about how gorgeous these two look in this PV. The second Yamapi got screen time, I swear I saw my life flash before my eyes! Yes, it was that hot. Seriously, the dance was just epic, good thing there was an interlude. I am so pleased that despite only being a feature, Yamapi was able to make a significant contribution! Anyway, catch this interesting collaboration PV FAST before the companies take it down. Of course my opinion on this PV is completely bias because of my obsession with Yamapi, but if you are into Amuro Namie or Yamapi at all, you don’t want to miss it.
Song has some strong beats and it flows nicely for a pop-techno mash. I don’t picture Namie doing this kind of song often though…I figured it might have been because she was collabing with Yamapi. But then again. it’s only recently when Yamapi decided to be more club oriented with his music. When I originally heard the song, I couldn’t hear Yamapi at all! He is just a feature, so of course I shouldn’t need to hear him. But now that I see the PV, I realized that he is very much apart of the song, which is strange because he’s 100% autotuned x___X Not totally surprised cause compared to Namie, he’s not much of a singer lol. It would have been nice if his vocals could match her’s in strength instead of getting an ass whooping
In terms of dancing, Yamapi has definitely improved: everything is a lot sharper, fluid, and stronger. Yet, the chemistry between the two was so off. For example, whenever they turned their head backs, they never actually look at each other. Most probably because they were both filmed separately and then spliced together, urk! During the rotation sequence where they were back to back, it would make more sense that they are looking towards each other because in most of the other scenes, they are back to back. For a song that deals with a lot of exchanging of lines, it is imperative that it is reciprocated in the choerography! If you look at them individually, it is decent. But when I step back and watch them together, I get awkwarded. In certain sections Yamapi was too reserved, and others Namie was all over the place. This could have been easily solved if they were just FILMED together.